So I am getting the hang of this dad thing.
Megan went back to work today, so I'm home with Kylan for the rest of the week. He goes to daycare starting next week. I'm not sure how I feel about that yet...though we are still hopeful about a few possibilities that will make daycare unnecessary. We'll see how those pan out as the year comes to a close.
Kylan is 6 weeks old today. I can't believe it. He's getting so big, and he's finally starting to develop something of his own personality. I'm currently sitting here watching him lay on his play mat and kick the piano buttons. He is smiling and smacking the rattles hanging over him, though he does get a little upset if he kicks the button and music doesn't come out. Long story short, listen to the internet reviews when they say the buttons are really hard to press. Anyhow, when he does finally get the music it makes him smile and I love it.
I've come to terms and adjusted to just about every bit of having to care for this tiny human at this point; with one notable exception: bedtime. I don't mind the early morning wake ups, or the crying during the day, or the seemingly endless diaper changes. What I am still struggling with, though, is how reticent Kylan seems to want to go to sleep at night. He's been fighting it every night this week and it's really difficult for me to cope with, especially when he's asleep in my arms for half an hour, but as soon as I put him down he wakes up.
Don't get me wrong: intellectually, I get it. He wants to be with us and not in his crib. He wants to be awake to see all the cool stuff that goes on after he goes to bed. Frankly, maybe he's just not tired cause he just woke up an hour ago from a three hour nap. Whatever the reason, though, it incenses me to no end. I get interrupted all the time during the day (I've already had to change a diaper and give half a bottle since starting this), but it doesn't register at this point as anything more than a minor nuisance. At night, however, when I want to go to sleep, having my autonomy to determine my bed time taken from me really triggers me in a way that I was just not prepared for. Like I said, I still don't know how to cope.
I'd really appreciate some advice if anyone has it.
Otherwise, things are clicking along just fine. Kylan loves being in the stroller, and really enjoys going running with me. We'll probably do that at some point today since the weather is just perfect for being active outdoors. The animals finally seem adjusted. Megan and I are still able to get things done around the house when we have the energy, though that's not as often as either of us would like just yet.
Now we're just getting ready for Halloween. Who else is as excited as I am for Halloween this year?! I get to pass out candy with a baby on my lap! And he's going to be dressed in the most adorable bear costume. I can't wait!
Well, it looks like half a bottle wasn't enough, so I'm off to give Kylan the other half.
